Lyme Diary
The goal of my blog is to share my experiences in the hopes of helping you to feel less alone and scared. I will be honest with you, no sugar-coating. For that reason, some content may not be appropriate for young children. That is up to your discretion. When you begin treatment, know that it is common, normal even, to get worse before you get better. Keep going. Keep fighting! It will be worth it.
Abandonment
Aug 11, 2022
Blog
Comfort/Mental Wellness
Remission/Recovery
Abandonment,
Chronic Illness,
Lyme Disease,
PTSD,
Sometimes I have a difficult time admitting when I’m struggling. I still get frustrated with myself when I feel like I’m backsliding. This may have something to do with my abandonment issues, which unexpectedly rose to the surface about ten days ago. With a shocking onset, my PTSD symptoms began...
Read MoreNo One Can Steal Your Inner Power
Aug 1, 2022
Blog
Comfort/Mental Wellness
Lyme Disease,
lyme warrior,
PTSD,
What follows is a dream I had about a year ago. At the time I was really struggling with my PTSD and feeling too weak to defend myself. My mind was playing terrible tricks on me, allowing me to believe I didn’t have the power to move on. That was...
Read MoreThe Importance of Routine
Jul 26, 2022
Blog
What Can I Expect During Lyme Treatment?
Chronic Illness,
Lyme Disease,
lyme warrior,
Routine,
Prior to being diagnosed with Lyme disease I was not a routine type of person. I preferred spontaneity to structure. But, the importance of routine was revealed to me in the need for structure and expectations, however minor those expectations may have been. Truly, it happened without any forethought or...
Read MoreThe Aftermath of Lyme Disease
Jul 18, 2022
Blog
Comfort/Mental Wellness
Remission/Recovery
Chronic Illness,
Lyme Disease,
lyme warrior,
During my treatment, as life passed me by, I would stare out my windows anxious to rejoin the world. I lamented all of the things I was unable to do: riding my bike, rock climbing, going for walks with my husband and my dog, paddle boarding. I was certain that...
Read MoreRemember to Breathe
Jun 13, 2022
Blog
Comfort/Mental Wellness
What Can I Expect During Lyme Treatment?
breathe,
Chronic Illness,
Lyme Disease,
lyme warrior,
I recently wrote about the worst night of my Lyme disease treatment. I realized after I hit publish and closed the mental door on that post, how deeply that experience had affected me. In writing about that night, I was forced to relive the trauma and the resulting wisps of...
Read MoreMy Fake Smile Became a Mask
Jun 6, 2022
Blog
Comfort/Mental Wellness
What Can I Expect During Lyme Treatment?
Chronic Illness,
Facade,
Fake Smile,
Lyme Disease,
Reflecting optimism I hear my husband walk in and gently nudge me awake. He doesn’t know it but I’ve been awake since I heard him start the coffee. I feel the weight of his body compressing the mattress behind me. With an effort that feels like slogging through quicksand, I...
Read MoreThe Awesome Sacrifice of a Lyme Warrior's Caregiver
May 28, 2022
Blog
Comfort/Mental Wellness
What Can I Expect During Lyme Treatment?
Chronic Illness,
Lyme Disease,
Lyme disease caregiver,
lyme warrior,
The Power of Grief “A central process in grieving is the attempt to reaffirm or reconstruct a world of meaning that has been challenged by loss.” -Robert A. Niemeyer When I was first diagnosed with Lyme disease, back in 2017, my husband wasn’t my husband yet. He was my boyfriend...
Read MoreCan Lyme Disease Cause PTSD?
May 24, 2022
Blog
Comfort/Mental Wellness
Symptom Specific
What Can I Expect During Lyme Treatment?
Chronic Illness,
Lyme Disease,
lyme warrior,
PTSD,
Yes, yes it can! I awoke with a start to the sound of the front door rattling dramatically. Glancing at the clock by our bedside, I see the red numbers, 2:32, glaring back at me. Is someone breaking in? Are they already in the house? Staring frightened into the darkness...
Read MoreLyme Rage
May 21, 2022
Blog
Symptom Specific
What Can I Expect During Lyme Treatment?
Lyme Disease,
lyme rage,
neurological symptoms,
psychological symptoms,
PTSD,
“The sun raped my eyes leading to an anger that would boil up inside me” I want to share this example without preamble, because it’s the best example of Lyme rage that I have. I’ll explain more on the topic later. Suffice it to say that Lyme rage is nonsensical....
Read MoreDiarrhea: The Lyme Disease Symptom Nobody Wants to Talk About
May 12, 2022
Blog
Symptom Specific
What Can I Expect During Lyme Treatment?
diarrhea,
Lyme co-infections,
Lyme Disease,
It’s a biological necessity, and yet we whisper about it as though we should be ashamed. Sure, diarrhea is gross, it smells and it’s messy, but we have to talk about this symptom of late-stage Lyme disease and its co-infections. If I had been less embarrassed to discuss my bowel...
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